The future is called "perhaps", which is the only possible thing to call the future. And the only important thing is not to allow that to scare you. -Tennessee Williams, Orpheus Descending, 1957
Nothing could describe my feelings on life at the moment more then this quote. I am more ready for the unknown, perhaps, and uncertainties than ever before. For anyone who knows me, my comfort zone is very limited and I very much enjoy living life inside my bubble. I'm not a risk taker. I live life on the calm side. And I live for the known. Anything that may even remotely be out of my element I tend to pull away from. I don't buy trendy clothing, stray from my regular menu items, or "go out on a whim". I'm cautious with my money, health, and relationships.
I'm not sure when I became so cautious. In college I was a wild child, risk-taker, go for the world kinda gal. I lived for the world, day to day, and for myself. I had no care in the world and cared for no one but myself. I partied all night, slept all day, and somehow managed to graduate college within a timely manner. I made friends, lost friends, broke hearts, and even managed to have my heart broken. I spent money, made money, and lived life like there was no tomorrow.
I have lived such a dull boring life for the past few years and I am ready for a change. With Hubs by my side and 2 dogs to tag along I am going to embrace the change. Bring on a new job, new town, new house, new life! I want it all. I will not be scared by what I do not know. I will take on every opportunity that is handed to me and I will live for myself. I want to live for the unknown, tackle every perhaps, and live for every moment.
And I will not allow myself to be scared.